How do we choose?

Choosing the political candidate that I support for president has never been a problem for me until now. I have always made my decision early in the race as I align the candidates beliefs with my understanding of conservatism: the political philosophy to which I subscribe. However this election has placed me between a rock and a hard place. I strongly believe in the three legs of the stool of conservatism: strong national defense, fiscal responsibility in the government combined with the current need to shrink the size and scope of government, and the role of the government to preserve the life and liberty of it's inhabitants by upholding the laws that prohibit and punish criminal activity and that preserve the life of the citizens. However these tenets have not been displayed by the nominee for my party John McCain: he consistently opposed Bush's tax cuts until recently, fought for the equivalent of amnesty, and undercut many of the attempts to grow the economy on the part of the Republicans by decrying supposed corporate greed. His political decisions have been deplorable and you add to that the fact that he personally is somewhat of a mad dog in his approach to interpersonal relationships. Ask me privately about this last blemish. As you can see I am fit to be tied because I certainly cannot vote for the socialist propaganda of the most liberal candidate in our lifetime. My only recourse is to enter a write-in on the ballot and look forward to days when true conservatives will once again speak out for life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness according to the constitution of our fathers.